Testing.. ok.. trying out the new blog format. Well.. i still prefer the old blogger format. I guess I was one of those stubborn users who refused to move until blogger decided to "forcefully" shift me out to the new blogger format.

Now let me break the news. It's all over between me and her. Anyway, in the first place, there was nothing to start with. We were not officially a couple or something. We're just friends. However, sometimes, love do the most irrational thing and when u try so hard to push it, it always seem to end up at the wrong side of the place. Well, we both agree that there's chemistry between us. Well.. no one is to be blame. So before anyone goes round accusing the other party of wrong doing, let me say it's actually on my part to let go of this feeling. It wasnt easy at first. Even up till now when im typing this, the feeling still lingers on. However,I must persevere to cut it off. The relationship is complicated in the first place round. So in the future, if u guys ever meet a successful "December-May" relationship aka Craddle snatcher, please do envy them. Im really sure they've been through alot to acheive that. Well you see, the main reason which let me to let go this relationship is the social pressure. Really.. in the past, I always thought i could handle. Most people or bystander would say when you are truly in love, you'll not let other factors affect you. However, let's be realistic. Somehow or somewhat, this form of pressure will somehow creep up and affect your perception and your confidence. People who really knows me never doubt my confidence. I always thought i can handle it. It's only when you been through it that realy test what you are made of. i guess this time round, I was definitely not fully mentally prepared. And no.. Im not infatuated. If I am, I would have let go a long time ago. If I am, I wouldnt plan so far ahead. Anyway, like what I've discussed with her, I think I'll take this opportunity to go on a "emotion holiday". But , I never shut the door totally. If ever one day I still find that i do like her, well, I guess i'll be much more mentally prepared this time round. Life really doesnt revolves round love and all that. There are far much more important things in life than that. So, let me drown in my sorrows for a few days. haha..and dont worry girls, it's a blessing in disguise to for you all, as now there's one more VERY eligible guy around. hahaha.. ok..kidding.. So for now. no more love topics.. it's getting me irritated from the start..

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