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Sunday, October 22, 2006

"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome."
- Isaac Asimov (1920 - 1992)

The above quotation is so damn true. Everyone wished that their death is either peaceful or a swift one. But the fact is... Most of us will have to suffer for a while before we finally meet our maker. I know it's painful but it's part of our life journey. And to those who are close to you, watching u moving on slowly, it's even more painful for them. They've to cope with the loss and all. So take it as a learning journey... A lesson on how to let go your love ones. Im experiencing that right now. "Living is a burden. To die is selfishness."

I saw someone dead today at the hospital. It was very surreal. TO top it off, I also witnessed my cousin who suddenly broke down in front of my grandma. It was really a saddening scene. Imagine.. Having to leave and knowing you will never have the chance to see that person again.. Imagine the pain and torture he must had felt when he is about to return to the States...

Tiring and trying week.. and im learning slowly how to let go that person - my grandma.

1:53 AM;

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

" There is no other way of guarding oneself against flattery than by letting men understand that they will not offend you by speaking the truth; but when everyone can tell you the truth, you lose their respect. "
- Niccolo Machiavelli, The Prince

Well well..Niccolo Machiavelli.. someone I got to read up on.. Karl MArx..Max Weber..Sociology is starting to kill me...

Anyway, Grandma is back in hospital again.. My hair changed colour overnight..

9:29 PM;

Saturday, October 14, 2006

For certain is death for the born
And certain is birth for the dead;
Therefore over the inevitable
Thou shouldst not grieve.
- Bhagavad Gita (250 BC - 250 AD), Chapter 2

Yea. Just realised I havent been blogging for a long time.Im really a pretty lazy blogger.

A lot of things has happened to me recently. Well, dont worry, Im not on the verge of collapse or anything such as overstressed or what. In fact, Im counting my blessings and just taking things at it is. So the more major event that has happened in my life recently, would be the admission of my grandma to the hospital. This is no ordinary visit as it was kind of life and death situation. Well..the verdict is out though. The doctor has confirmed that my grandma's lungs were damaged and it had shrank. Yes. She doesnt has much time left. That's why alot of relatives have been visiting her in the hospital. Well, although she has just been discharged, her health still doesnt look good.

Anyway, this episode really shows me the individual relatives that i know. It kind of make me wonder sometime where they place their prirorities at. Kinship or Material success? Well, I dont want to elaborate. Ha..I got into an argument with my elder brother last night. Made me realised why I hate him so much. It's not a nice feeling to bear a grudge against someone especially your own family people. But it has been years and for a moment I thought i actually forgive him. Well, it didnt. Recent events and actions he took made me re-inforced the grudge against him. I dont expect to listen to people's advice or anything about this matter cause they are not the one going through it. Maybe they've been through it before but I still feel that whatever he did to me during my childhood years, it's being re-enacted again now.. Yes.. Since he wants to draw the line, I think I should to draw the line too. Im not one who is easily capable to nurse the grudge or exact vengence. But if you do cross the line with my patience, I'l make sure you get back double in return.

Right, enough of him. Anyway, there's stil some things i can call for as a happy event. My laptop is finally here. Fujitsu LifeBook S7110! yea! In fact, Im using it to type this entry.. hahaha Till then..

3:43 PM;

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