Wednesday, August 30, 2006
"Personality can open doors, but only character can keep them open."
- Elmer G. Letterman
I simply like this quote. (For your info, I just saw this on the net 30 seconds ago and I just ripped it off)
Anyway, the topic for today is me, myself and I. At any point of your life, have you all stopped and wondered how people have come to view you? Many a time, we all always say something along this line, "I am what I am." or "I dont care what other people think." But if you stop and start to think, in fact you'll start to realise that sub-consciously, you are taking on different roles. Roles which you tend to deviate from your true self. I remember my sociology lecturer in Uni once mentioned this, "Your true self is the self where you are singing while bathing in the toilet." What he is trying to say is, your true self can only be seen by you alone. This is because when we are in society, we tend to take on social roles. Just like how a son is to a father, or a student is to a teacher. We take on different social roles to different people. We cant possibly treat one friend exactly the same as how we treat another friend, no matter how close we are. Maybe that's why I kind of find Sociology a little interesting.
So after a long and dry explaination, you must be wondering, "What has this got to do with me?" Like Ive said, the topic is me, myself and I. Recently, Ive been wondering how other people view me or what I appear to them as? I guess most of the people in secondary school know me as someone who is a sporty "guai kia", whereas my peeps in JC will think that Im a childish happy person who never grows up. However, to my siblings especially my sister, maybe Im someone whom she can bitch her woes to. But to some people, I can be a very serious person who thinks alot.With all these conflicting personalities, I do wonder at times, which is the "real" me? Anyway, if according to what I really feel and believe, I think Im the sort who's actually a quiet, serious person who likes to observe and think about general matters. Ok.. don't be surprised. I know many people who view me as childish and happy will be shocked. The main reason why I often appear childish and silly at times is just to de-stress and cheer up the environment. Its something mindless I do, but its also something which Ive been trying hard to get rid off, well because of this childish image thing. (besides, my youthful look is not helping me). Ok dont get me wrong. Im not becoming a "nimcompook". Im just being a true Gemini. No wonder people say, a true blue gemini is so hard to be one. (Cause they are never one. they are two... ok i know its lame)
Ive been dwelling on what my lecturer has said. If your true self emerge only when you are alone and not taking part in any social roles. Then what's the relationship between your true self and the different social roles. I was just thinking that if people are said to put on many masks ,then their true self is the one beneath all these masks. From this, we can draw the similiarity between yourself without social roles and one without masks. Let's take another point of view. We do not put on many masks, it's just that we are showing our true self at a different degree. So hypothetically, we are said to have one true self and it varies differently to every individuals. Hmmm. this hypothesis I something which I just thought of recently. Up till now, Im still trying to find some truth in that.
Ok..enough for the day. to end off at a simpler note, Im quite happy today.. First time as a role of a teacher receiving a Teacher's day gift from my student. Haha.. Really a memorable day.
10:06 PM;
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
"Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus"
- John Gray
Let's talk about a matter which is very close to most of us - Relationships. Well, let us limit the scope to BGR types. Haha. To get the topic straight, Im not a Despo nor am I a sick pervert who is gay. I just feel that currently, Ive reached to a stage where Im ready for another relationship. However, Im looking for a relationship which is a lasting one. Yes, you didnt get me wrong. This relationship which im looking for, Im looking at the end which is marriage. That's why many of my male friends have been asking me, "Lit, Why you are so picky? Why you didnt go and hook any girls in the Uni and all?" Well, that's because Ive yet to come across anyone that can really interest me. Besides, I really feel I've gone beyond the physical stage. Ok..not totally. I mean, my expectation for a partner is pretty low. I don't expect her to be as sexy as Jessica Alba, as pretty as Kate Beckinsale or be as elegant as Julia Roberts. All I ask for is that we are able to communicate well and be understanding to each other. Hahaha.. Some people might think that's a pretty high expectation already.
Let me put it in this way, what I mean by communication is not just your everyday trashy talking, eg "Ni hao ma??" Communication in this sense means, being able to relate whatever you are feeling to me. Besides, the person Im looking for must be able to converse with me and be a little well read. Hahaha, I guess the downside to this kind of relationship is that my partner suddenly becomes too smart and may find me stupid.
Nevertheless, from the past relationships I have, Ive learnt that communication plays a really important part. It is also through the lack of communication that many couples split up, including mine. That's why, I emphasise alot on communication.
Anyway, wish me luck as I wait patiently for my lady in white to arrive.
10:06 PM;
"All ending are beginnings. We just don't know it at the time..."
- Mitch Albom, The five people you will meet in heaven
Chucked in a corner of the virtual world, a blog lay there, hoping that it will be remembered by its owner. However, as time goes by, it began to lose hope. As it is the case with many other blogs, it is just the similar scenario being played everyday....
So what has suddenly made me to revive my blog again, especially after a long hiatus? Well, basically the main reason is a lot of my friends have been bugging me revive my blog. They are interested to know what I have been up to, especially when I have tried my best to seclude myself from the outside world.
You all might think what's wrong with the outside world? Or you all might start to harbour the thought that Im going bonkers? Ok. First of all, there is nothing wrong with the outside world. Secondly, I’m not going "ku ku" in my head. It’s just that I suddenly lost the interest in blogging. Besides, I do not want to see myself becoming like one of the millions who are like machines, uploading their posts daily, hoping that one day they'll be famous. Maybe that was what I felt at the beginning when I started blogging in 2002. Though I managed to garner a few achievements (such as total strangers popping by my blog to read or having my blog being in the yahoo search engine), I always felt it is meaningless. Anyway, as i grew older, I realised that I started to have a preference for a more private life.
Therefore, to end my very first entry since a long time, I will like to say, "Thank you", especially to all those who have been patiently waiting for my entries. Haha. On top of that, Ive remake my blogskin (another rip off from somewhere) and deleted all the past entries in the tagboard. It's like back to zero again!
10:19 AM;